Thursday, September 8, 2016

grateful even through the hard moments.


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It's September which means my very favorite month of the year is right around the corner which makes my heart super happy.  I was so excited to end August.  It was a crap month, full of lots of really really LOWS and very few HIGHS.  

In August, my dad who became very ill after a very simple routine surgery, declined rapidly.  There is a post sitting in my drafts detailing this more, but i've been unable to post it.  For some reason, making the decision to take my estranged father off life support was much more traumatic than I could have imagined. Sitting in a funeral home making arrangements for someone who has for better or worse, made a huge impact on my entire world, was something I could not prepare for. It came with so many emotions that I didn't expect.  My dad was not a saint, far from it, and while so much of our relationship feels impossible to explain, i'll say I hope he finally has peace.  I hope we can all find peace.  

So, August was full of ugly, sad tears and the further realization that life is so incredibly fragile and what we do with it is POWERFUL.  We truly have the power to impact people forever, whether good or bad, our actions matter! Our words matter! Our behavior matters!  

2016 has been a rough year for us, we've faced loss over and over.  Father, grandmother, aunt, uncle, cousin, close friend.  It's been a year full of lessons and sadness, but also really beautiful moments as well and I realize how freakin' blessed I am.  I want to focus on the positives today.  So here we go:

-I'm married to my very best friend.  I can't imagine a day without him.  He's my rock, my supporter, makes me laugh so hard I cry, agrees to my weirdo antics like playing hide-and-go-seek with our dog, always patient, always kind even when I don't deserve it, and always puts me first.  In a dark year he is the continuous BRIGHT light.

-My career!  FINALLY!  I struggled to find my place for a long time and now that I'm here I have to pinch myself that this is what I get to do.  In January I was folding laundry while sitting in the floor crying to my husband about careers and paths and roads to take or not take.  We had a conversation about "dream" jobs and what I wanted to happen etc.  I listed several 'dream' scenarios and we laughed (through my tears) about it because it was truly a DREAM.  Less than 2 months later I was offered that actual dream.  And even now all these months later it still seems so surreal that everything on that list came to fruition.  I think about that moment, sitting in my bedroom floor crying, and I still can't believe where I am now!  I'm grateful. So, so, so grateful for dreams that happen. 

-Our house!  We knew when we bought our house that it wouldn't be our forever home!  But, now that we've replaced and remodeled and done everything there is to do, it seems surreal that we could be selling it in the next year or so.  It's been such an AMAZING adventure and regardless of the time we have left here, I want to embrace it because this place has been incredible. I stalk zillow daily and i'm excited for the next adventure when the time is right.

-C is headed back to school for what will be the start to his FINAL degree!  I'll be calling him, Dr. Husband in the near future.  I'm so so happy and excited for him! 

So much to look forward to and to be thankful for!  These are just a few of the things that I am focusing on currently. 



Tuesday, August 2, 2016

In the eye of the storm.


A beautiful reminder when we are going through it.  You alone are the anchor--when my sails are torn.

Friday, July 29, 2016

Time well spent//adventures out west

Petrified Forest



I can't believe August is nearly here.  At the beginning of the summer it feels so long and like all the possibilities are stretched out endlessly in front of you, then BOOM, it's nearly fall and you're doing an inventory of scarves.

It was such a great summer.  So many memories were made, but one of the highlights for me was a trip we took a few weeks back.  I had to head to Salt Lake City for a work trip and a few weeks after my flights were confirmed we checked to see if there were any available seats left on the flight to book for C! And the heavens opened up AND my flight had a few open seats left.  So then we started planning our adventure of all the amazing places we could visit.  

We had such an amazing time hiking, adventuring, and just being together and laughing hysterically.  So blessed to live my life with my best friend.  From every BIG adventure to even the tiniest, he's my person.

Some of my fav pics are below.  I'll always cherish this trip, the long miles that stretched before us, long talks and laughing so hard my sides hurt and asking each other the dumbest questions, "Hey, how many kilometers should I be going?" Because obviously the rental car place gave us a Canadian car. Late nights and early mornings.  Crying when I broke my fav hydration pack and laughing when we were so deliriously sun tired that everything was just stupid and hilarious.  Being flexible when we ended up in the world's worst Airbnb (shoutout to AIRBNB for refunding our money with no hassle) and changing plans at the last minute when the Grand Canyon was on fire and all the trails were closed.  Funny hotels and eclectic hotels and crashing so hard at the end of the day because my legs and body hurt from a day well spent exploring and hiking.

We are already plotting our next adventure, I can't wait. 


Bryce Canyon


Bryce Canyon


The Arizona landscape is UNREAL.  
Miles and miles of coral sand at the Coral Pink State Park



Zion National Park--could have done without the long lines and shuttles in 100 weather, but it was well worth it. 



Tuesday, July 12, 2016

The secret to overcoming fear

Do the thing that scares you. I once read "fear alone is not enough to keep your world small" and I'm just starting to believe it might be true. 

Thursday, July 7, 2016

breathe deeply//words to live by

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Try as much as possible to be wholly alive with all your might, and when you laugh, laugh like hell.

We get one shot at this thing.  A good reminder to make it count.

Monday, June 20, 2016

Adventuring


Hi there! It's been a bit since I checked in here! We've been taking advantage of summer and trying to get out and about as much as possible. We've been doing a lot of hiking and exploring and having lots of fun in the process. The photos above are from a hike last weekend in which we had to kayak, hike STRAIGHT up a large mtn with no trail, and consequently run up on the funniest armadillo hang out. 

We have some fun plans coming up in July and while I'm looking forward to those I'm trying to savor summer and enjoy the quiet moments. 

I've been reading a lot and writing (not as much as I should). Currently I'm reading Lily and the Octopus and Summer Sisters by Judy Blume. 

So that's life right now. Lots of hikes, exploring, reading, playing board games with friends, discovering the most amazing veggie burger and dreaming about it, working out, iced coffee. I hope you're enjoying your summer! 

Thursday, April 21, 2016

everything.

Oh, it's glorious Thursday! Friday is just right around the corner!  So happy the weekend is almost here, even though it's been a good week.  This week I was able to find a little bit more balance and it made the week go by much smoother.  I'm really pumped too because we've been marking off items on the to-do list slowly, but surely over the last few months.  Cleaning out the garage, FINALLY, cleaning the foyer closest and getting rid of about 47 pairs of curtains, still working on the bathroom and all the joys of sanding down skim coated walls.

I've been super unmotivated by the gym lately, but still going everyday.  A crap workout is better than no workout, but I'm going to explore some different workout plans and see what I can come up with that might be more motivating for me.  I plan on keeping track of all that here, and how my workout/food plan/etc is going.

My yearly reading goal is at 2. TWO.  It's April.  It's pretty insane and I don't even know what my deal is.  I'm reading Hidden Bodies By Caroline Kepnes and also The Gifts of Imperfection by Dr. Brene Brown as a weekly book study with the girls from work.  I'm LOVING TGOI....if you haven't read it, I highly reccommend it.  The below video is an cute, animated short on the difference between empathy and sympathy and how one drives connection and the other doesn't.  It's been really interesting to explore what connects people and also been very personally motivating to me on many levels.

I've also been in an epic fight with a couple of birds who insist on building the biggest nest imaginable on one of the pillars on the front of our house.  We are going on a week of me asking them very nicely/removing their nest/ and they keep coming back.  They also are enjoying using my rocking chairs on the front porch as their personal restroom. Life is good.

I've been missing this little blog and hoping to come here more often to document life.  Most days I feel like life is just very normal and there isn't much to say, but as I read back over past posts, I really enjoy reading the mundane day to day adventures of our newlywed life.  AND HOW have we been married nearly 4 years? I.just.don't.know.where.time.goes.

Also, been thinking a lot about ways to incorporate healthy living/blogging my workouts and meal plans/finding a community of like-minded individuals who are on a pursuit to be FIT and healthy.  Not sure what that would look like quite yet, but if you're one of those people who also feel you could benefit from having a place/support system/etc.etc. in your pursuit of losing weight, getting healthy, maintaining weight, being active, or any variation of the sort, then feel free to leave a comment or send me an email at agerma87@gmail.com.  I always find there is an influx of people that come to this blog after popsugar shares my story.  That article is only a fraction of the battle though and I would love to do more in regards to helping each other find our path to a healthy life.

Anyways, this has been very long and rambly, thanks for sticking it out if you have:)! Happy Thursday, we've almost made it, the weekend is so close I can smell it!